I was at a conference recently where Marilyn Meberg asked every one in the audience to pull one thing out of the “Where were you God?” box that we all have lurking somewhere in the basements of our souls. My initial response was, “What are you talking about? I don’t have anything in that box.” Hahaha….

It’s a scary thing, being open to facing what goes inside the “Where were you God?” box. It brings up more questions like, Do you care? Am I loved? Aren’t You omincient? Don’t You have my best interests in mind? Was I unfaithful? Weak? Do I not trust You enough?

Part of me wonders if it would be productive to spend some quiet time before the Lord opening that box even wider. The situations in life where I have felt abandoned or betrayed have left scars, and a wound that hasn’t been taken care of can never properly heal. The only barrier to this “project” is time. I kind of want an overnight resolution with God. Not a surprising reaction since I live in a world of instant gratification. A slow journey does not sound appealing.